it's not a trick, it's an illusion

so high school. i was telling girlfriend the other day, week, month, etc. that i hardly remember it. not entirely true. i do remember parts of it. i remember thinking that during junior high i didn't get out very much and how exciting high school was cause i actually got out of the house. and how my friends could drive. i remember playing golf. i wanted to play tennis my junior year but my golf coach told me that i'm playing golf. i remember the girls i thought were hot. i knew next to nothing about them yet was still content admiring them from afar. i don't think there were any girls back then that felt the same about me. i remember wanting a fast car. aww..lowered cars and loud mufflers. and racing stickers on the windshield. i remember prom. there were a million people in our group picture. and i was stressed about finding a date for the only high school dance i went to. i remember being saddened by the possibility of not seeing my friends anymore. how i really wanted to go to ucla. then they said no. so i said ucsd. and my parents bribed me. zot zot. i remember wondering if i'd be as involved as my sisters were in kaba. how i couldn't picture myself being like them, at the head of such large groups. i remember taking a picture with Phil at my graduation. and both him and Dell being at my graduation party. which was also my sisters' graduation party. i remember that summer spending so much of my graduation money on going out and bowling every weekend with my friends. that was fun. i remember my uncle in a coma that summer. really bad asthma attack. i remember being in one of the meeting rooms with my dad's side of the family when we decided that it was time to let him pass.

anyhow..that's what i remember in high school. my high school reunion was supposed to be this summer. i never really planned on going. then i got a myspace message form the girl organizing it saying due to insufficient funds it was cancelled and, instead, we're going to mimi's cafe. yeah....