my ricochet
There has to be something I could write about. I’m hoping there’s something I could write about. Cause I’m fucken bored as hell at work. I don’t know what to do right now. Frak! I had a breakthrough right now. I just remembered that scifi.com was showing BSG’s season premier early. Unfortunately they were only doing that at 12pm EST. Sons of bitches.
So I had jury duty the past week. Actually, I got called in last Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and this past Tuesday. Friday, both the court and work were closed. This past Monday, the court was closed so I worked instead. It actually wasn’t bad. Didn’t have to report till 10:30 at the earliest and we weren’t allowed into the court room till 11 most of the time. The freeway didn’t have any traffic making me wish I had a job in downtown instead of west LA. Hour and a half lunches let me with a lot of time to read but, mostly, a lot of time to sit down and yawn for an hour. On average, I spent probably 3 ½ hours in the courtroom. As always, I did not make many friends in my time there. I mostly sat around speculating on what people around me were like. There was the Asian pop star that kept sitting near me. I think he was gay. This old guy kept talking to a 20 year old he thought could pass for a 12 year old. That one is just too easy. Other people, I’m just glad they were dismissed because they were pretty stupid. The clerk says “Remember, you will have to report again tomorrow.” So the kid in front of me asks “So we’re done?” Yeah….
Good lord….it’s only 2:27 as I’m typing this.
I’m contemplating a switch to another department here. Contemplating because I haven’t been interviewed yet nor has one been scheduled. I just know a position is open and my old supervisor will recommend me for it because it’s at her new department. Anyhow, I’m both excited and nervous. Excited with a tinge of malice. Excited because I’d be doing something new where the ceiling doesn’t seem so obvious. A lot of room for movement and more educational if this is my career. Sometimes it scares me to be 28 1/2 and wondering about my “career.” The malice part…I’ll admit that the last time I was promoted here I had to plead my case. A little tough on the pride but they did have some valid points. Where it really annoyed me was I got offered it but starting below what others received at my level and way less than what another co-worker received to decline another position else where AND still a level below me. Actually…that would be ironic because the department I’m trying to move to is the one he/she declined the position with. Obviously, I’m harboring resentment. I just feel like a chump because I actually asked for more but was told we have a tight budget. Maybe I’m just not worth much. Also, recently they hired someone to be my partner and I have this odd feeling that he/she is making more than me. Why must cash rule everything around me? The nervous thing…it’ll be a completely new department from I’m used to after 5 years. That and what if I’m making a horrible, horrible mistake? Maybe I’m just curious and want to see how much I’m worth outside of work. To see how valuable I am or if I’m just an interchangeable piece. Ha ha ha…I’ve tried this once before and I got the feeling that I only have skills for a university environment. Oh well.
Ever read “The Time Traveler’s Wife”? I had read it once before because Jeanelle had a copy and I read Plan B (Brad Pitt and Jennifer Anniston’s production company) wanted to make it into a movie. I read it again since Millicent had a copy of it when we were in Europe. It involves a man who suffers from time displacement syndrome. Basically he time travels when he gets stressed. To calm himself down he runs. I’ve been running more lately and I sometimes think I’m doing it so I could stay in the present. That and so I could lose weight before my wedding. For some reason at work I’ve been feeling more stressed than usual. Maybe, I’m just thinking about leaving too much. Whether or not it’s a good decision for me. Or that it’s something I should’ve done a long time ago. I don’t know. But I feel like I could’ve been hopping into the past a couple hundred times.