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can't go fall asleep. it's been a long night. at least, the lakers won. yay. i left my window and i swear i hear kid's voices outside. maybe one of my neighbors are having a party. but i don't hear any music. i guess frustrating nights where i can't go to sleep make me nosy. should i look outside? okay i hear laughing now so i maybe nothing bad is happening. unless someone just killed a bunch of people and started laughing about it. you know, i used to listen to my neighbors a lot in LA. whenever it was summer, i'd leave the sliding door open so that the cool air and the noise could flow in. wasn't so bad. the mexicans across the way were a little loud but loud in the sense that they were watching a sporting event and cheering on. didn't happen too often. back then i had trouble sleeping constantly so it never intruded on my beauty sleep. hell...noise at 3 o'clock just encouraged me to go outside and have another cigarette. maybe that was my problem. there was that night that a dozen cops were patrolling my street. i think some guy was hiding in the apartment complex that was being built next door.
my day at work was okay. apparently i got placed in a committee cause i like making templates at work. seriously. i'm also being asked to do some testing for stuff but that's not going to be happen till later. i don't know what to make of it. a part of me wants to think that they want to give me more responsibility so i know i'm more important at work. but it's probably just coincidence that they assign this stuff to me at a time i'm questioning my worth at work. trying to make me feel like a priority. that's funny now for some reason.
took a peek outside. couldn't resist. saw three kids outside at the house behind me. okay, teens. also heard some adults so i don't know. i'm wondering if it's the same family that's always lived there. just that their kids are older now. so maybe they're the teens. awww boo...they're playing music. might have to shut the window. but it's hot in here. dangit.
harold and kumar is on so i'm watching that right now. haven't watched since i saw in the theatre. i don't know what to do other than watch tv. as you can tell, i'm wide awake. maybe i can watch the teens outside and see what crazy teenage stuff they're doing. maybe they're celebrating over getting drivers licenses. how they have a cool red bar and blue bar across theirs. maybe they're discussing their SAT scores and talking about what college they're going to and how they're going to party. what do teenagers talk about now? seems like such a long time ago. i think i'm getting jealous of these teenagers. they sound like they're having fun. i stayed home all night.
the draft is in two weeks. realizing that brought an instant smile to my face. someone at work today told me i never smile. i told them i smile all the time. okay..maybe i'm getting sleepier cause i don't know what i'm writing anymore.