a realization of how it's always been...

i strongly dislike kevin garnett

2009-01-03T16:44:39Z

who is the blood ninja?

2008-12-13T03:58:28Z

watching the laker game. no letdowns please. also decided to sort my hotmail since i have stuff in my inbox from 5 years ago. i wonder why i kept these emails? most i kept because of amusement. they were funny. they were perverted. they made me blush. a few reminded of how down i was. a lot of them reminded me of how lucky i am to have the friends i have. i don't get to see them as often as i would like to, but i'm happy whenever i can. some of these emails trip me out because i'll remember exactly when and why they were written but can't believe how long ago they were written. so yeah...organizing my hotmail account has made me a bit nostalgic. but i've been laughing mostly at all the stuff rex had sent me before. see below. it made me cry with laughter.

bloodninja: Baby, I been havin a tough night so treat me nice aight?
BritneySpears14: Aight.
bloodninja: Slip out of those pants baby, yeah.
BritneySpears14: I slip out of my pants, just for you, bloodninja.
bloodninja: Oh yeah, aight. Aight, I put on my robe and wizard hat.
BritneySpears14: Oh, I like to play dress up.
bloodninja: Me too baby.
BritneySpears14: I kiss you softly on your chest.
bloodninja: I cast Lvl. 3 Eroticism. You turn into a real beautiful woman.
BritneySpears14: Hey...
bloodninja: I meditate to regain my mana, before casting Lvl. 8 Cock of the Infinite.
BritneySpears14: Funny I still don't see it.
bloodninja: I spend my mana reserves to cast Mighty F*ck of the Beyondness.
BritneySpears14: You are the worst cyber partner ever. This is ridiculous.
bloodninja: Don't f*ck with me bitch, I'm the mightiest sorcerer of the lands.
bloodninja: I steal yo soul and cast Lightning Lvl. 1,000,000 Your body explodes into a fine bloody mist, because you are only a Lvl. 2 Druid.
BritneySpears14: Don't ever message me again you piece of shit.
bloodninja: Robots are trying to drill my brain but my lightning shield inflicts DOA attack, leaving the robots as flaming piles of metal.
bloodninja: King Arthur congratulates me for destroying Dr. Robotnik's evil army of Robot Socialist Republics. The cold war ends. Reagan steals my accomplishments and makes like it was cause of him.
bloodninja: You still there baby? I think it's getting hard now.
bloodninja: Baby?

want more? see here.

bueller? bueller?

2008-12-10T15:12:20Z

who ever is absent from work today I'm assuming is calling in gay.

....

2008-11-05T05:01:30Z

wouldn't it be cool to be at grant park right now? pretty moving to watch. seeing history being made. wow. just....wow.

=)

2008-10-28T18:03:01Z

i have an excuse for everything. i'm pathetic. see? an excuse for having too many excuses. oh well. i'll just owe up to it and figure it out soon. can't blame others. there's a little truth in everything. the end.

because whining about it will always solve the problem

2008-10-14T14:49:24Z

spoiler alert. i will discuss some parts of heroes. fyi.

so recently i learned the term "idiot plot." per turkey city lexicon via wikipedia, idiot plot is a plot that "functions only because all the characters involved are idiots: They behave in a way that suits the author's convenience, rather than through any rational motivation of their own." it's helping me enjoy Heroes to a certain extent. as long as i assume everyone on the show is an idiot, the show is much more enjoyable. yeah...it's not the case with all the characters but man....a whole lot of them. like a lot of them conveniently forget about the powers they have. why can't hiro just go back in time and stop himself from opening the safe? i don't know. but i'll continue to watch. maybe they should've avoided time travel powers. too many problems with that. one...it's been a main plot point 3 years running. season 1, this is what the future looks like, prevent it! season 2, this is the dark future we need to prevent, don't let it happen! season 3, peter still has a scar and sylar is good, fix it! but i guess if there's one thing to learn in sci fi, is that tampering with the past never secures the "proper" future. maybe that's why hiro won't do that with preventing the opening of the safe. i don't know. just whining. yay.

i hate "work"

2008-10-09T15:49:07Z

i really do. it's funny how angry i can make myself. i'll just let time some pass and wait for it to pass. i know i'll still be angry about it later or when i bring it up because, no matter how much time passes, shit still bothers me. really bothers me. nothing to do but man up or move on. oh well. i'm manning up. or is that just a rationale I undertake to make me think i'm doing the "right" thing. fuck if i know.

i feel old. just sometimes though. like yesterday myleene had some friends over. all freshman. probably all born in 1990. yeah....1979. whoop whoop! like the smashing pumpkins song. i love that song. but what the fuck. i don't know how to act in front of them. not like i'm the most mature person. but should i really corrupt their minds? so i didn't say anything perverted around them. i kept quiet. i focused on making dinner. one of them asked me how my day was. should i have responded "i fucken hate work. it sucks ass"? i wanted to, but i chose not to. "work was great. er..it was okay" focus on cooking. focus on using too much vinegar and not enough soy sauce. dangit. but this wasn't the only case of social awkwardness around youngens. two weeks ago i had lunch with jovan and two student workers. young guys. single guys. they were just talking about dating and picking up chicks. my mind is thinking about weddings so it was strange to hear the alternate side of things. so i stayed quiet. i listened. i chewed my kalbi 100 times before swallowing.

yeah...i haven't posted since August so I'll try to make this a long one.

marvin has asked for alternative/rock love songs. how about depressing songs? that's all i find in my ipod. i've sent him 5 songs...but they're not necessarily happy. like they're about being in love...but a bit of a dark take on love. like death cab for cutie "i will follow you into the dark." or "you can do better than me" mostly because the last line is "you can do better than me, but i can't do better than you." the closest i can get it jimmy eat world "for me this is heaven". i think Tom Delonge had JEW play this at his wedding. oh yeah...marvin asked for songs he could use at his wedding.

i'm not digging work. just frustrating. but you look at the big picture and their's much more frustrating things going on. more pressing concerns than all my little stupid ones. just need to relax. don't get mad at anyone. understand that some people were just raised differently. some people are just idiots. some are just too fucken narrow minded. some people lack manners. some people don't realize their being hypocritical. some people just like to vent and not do anything about it. i call myself out on that last one.

i will follow you into the dark

2008-08-25T21:59:10Z

Love of mine
Someday you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light
Or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
And illuminate the "No"s
On their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In catholic school
As vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised
By a lady in black
And I held my tongue
As she told me, "Son,
Fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
And illuminate the "No"s
On their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me
Have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes
Are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
But it's nothing to cry about
Because we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
And illuminate the "No"s
On their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

-"I Will Follow You Into the Dark", Death Cab for Cutie

re: nba draft 2008

2008-06-27T15:38:23Z

Minnesota. In the....'96 Draft Minnesota drafted Ray Allen. They then traded his rights to the Bucks for the rights to Stephon Marbury. Allen *argh* NBA Champion, Marbury team cancer. Two years go, Minnesota drafted Brandon Roy and then traded his rights for the rights of Randy Foye drafted by the Blazers. Roy NBA All-Star, Foye possible started. Last night Minnesota drafted OJ Mayo and, in an 8 player deal, obtained the rights to Kevin Love from Memphis Grizzlies. Let's see how this plays out.
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speaking of the Grizzlies...they now have 5 combo/point guards in OJ Mayo, Mike Conley, Kyle Lowry, Marko Jaric and Javaris Crittenton. Is there any way the Lakers can reacquire Critt? i love his potential.
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Can the Spurs trade their 1st round pick, George Hill, to the Lakers? The Lakers were high on him and Spurs allegedly e-mailed all nba teams about selling their 1st round pick, 26th overall.
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unsubstantiated rumor that i will comment on: Lamar Odom, Jordan Farmar, and Luke Walton or Trevor Ariza to the Bulls for Kirk Hinrich and a re-signed Luol Deng. Financially...it could work depending on what Luol Deng is re-signed too. Bulls have Derek Rose now so they don't need Hinrich. The Bulls can only sign Gordon or Deng and, if Deng isn't happy there, could sign Gordon and trade Deng. They'll get a veteran with a big salary that can come off the books in a year. Lakers get a younger PG (compared to Fish) and a SF that can hit that 18 footer and keep defenses honest. that and Hinrich has always been my favorite non-Laker player. i'd buy his jersey in a second.

=(

2008-06-18T16:42:38Z

it's going to be like this till next season finally starts. i can't wait for it to start.

btw...I have a theory about Tiger Woods. I'm fairly certain he's a Laker fan. I think the reason the story of his knee surgery and subsequent break from the rest of the golf season leaked today to take away from the Lakers' defeat.

no tears for the sheep

2008-06-17T20:35:50Z

To say I’m not feeling today would be an understatement. I just hope it ends on a good note.* Then going through today would be well worth it. It’s just so slow right now. I was trying to rely on good old research to get me through this awesome Tuesday but I have nothing to research. Last week it was looking at TVs for my parents and different HDMI cable companies. The fruits of my research led me to advising my parents on a Panasonic 50” Plasma 1080p and monoprice cables. The tv is up and running and the cables should be arriving today actually. That was my project for Thursday night and Saturday morning. The Sunday project was transferring old files from the old computer to the new family computer. Alas, I have nothing to research. Well, nothing I should consider buying. So what do I do now? Lots of thinking probably. Not necessarily a bad thing. When I was in LA spending hours and hours in my room that’s all I did. Just lie in my bed. Stare at a wall. Get up for a smoke. Follow that up with whatever Minutemaid fruit juice was in the fridge. Some could confuse that with depression, but I like to think I was pacing myself. What would I think about back then? I don’t know. Lots of stupid stuff that only I would find funny. Lots of depressing stuff that only I would find funny. Those were the days. The more things change, the more they stay the same? Definitely.

*A Laker win preferably.

denial isn't just a river in Egypt

2008-06-13T07:54:00Z

I can't sleep. Too depressed. I'm straight up blogging on my iPhone. I can't even think of the particulars of the game. My mind can't wrap around the fact the lakers were up by 18 at the half...and lost. I keep tossing and turning. I can't even close my eyes. They just stay open, transfixed on darkness, the deficit of, the impossible task of...I can't even think. Or write. This sucks.

imperio!

2008-06-12T14:54:33Z

it's good to begin the morning with a laugh. unless you're me, because something could be truly funny or i can be upset about something and still appreciate the humor in it. this morning, it's something truly funny. i was reading some raider article about how a dolphin writer wrote an article that talked about how the raiders aren't even thinking about the superbowl or the playoffs. the raider writer thought it was hilarious because the dolphins, you know, finished with one win last season. the raider writer also thought the raiders do have a shot and listed things that would have to happen. typical stuff like McFadden starting off fast, the O-line continuing to improve, "top" teams having down years and injuries to superstars in other teams. these were all in the bullet point format. the funny part was in the middle whee he listed "Mid-season acquisition of Pau Gasol." Oh Lakers...please win tonight. and Game 5. and, hell, i'm greedy, Game 6 too. Kobe Bryant, baby hook, over 3 Celtic defenders for the win.

Happy Anniversary Millicent! What this says is that i'm quite talented in the imperius curse. imperio!

i like it

2008-06-10T19:46:45Z

We're starting to feel
We stayed together out of fear
Of dying alone
I've been slipping through the years
My old clothes don't fit like they once did
So they hang like ghosts
Of the people I've been

It's like my heart can't take
My fall in love every day
And I feel like a fool

I have to face the truth
That no one could ever look at me like you do
Like I'm something worth holding on to

These times I think of leaving
But it's something I'll never do

'Cause you can do better than me
But I can't do better than you

-Death Cab for Cutie, "You Can Do Better Than Me"

game 2 summary

2008-06-09T15:22:51Z

1st half: the refs seemed a bit biased preventing the lakers from playing defense and allowing the celtics to build a 12 point lead. despite this double digit deficit, i felt the lakers were still in the game and, naively, believed lakers could get calls in the second half.

3rd quarter : the refs didn't make as many unbiased calls in the second half. but the lakers played frustrated and unfocused. i think Leon Powe droved from one end to another, untouched, for a dunk. celtics continued to hit their 3's.

4th quarter: with a little under 8 minutes left, the lakers abandoned the triangle (maybe they did earlier but this time it was really apparent) and, combined with the celtics poor closeout, began to scramble on offense. Kobe hit a couple of big shots, including one where his shoulder got pulled back but no foul. Vlad stole the ball, took 4 steps and dunked it. Sasha hit a three cutting down the lead to 4 and then Kobe hit two free throws to make it a 2 point deficit. but Pierce hit two free throws and Sasha got "blocked" (no ball...all wrists by Pierce). game over.

conclusion: celtics are up 2-0. lakers are pissed. i' m scared they're going to approach game 3 as they're "entitled" to win the game because of the officiating from this past game. i'm also scared of the celtics getting the "dwayne wade" treatment i.e. every time someone drives to the rim a foul is called regardless of what contact is actually made. i was actually worried kobe would get that treatment and it would cheapen any laker's victory. yeah...that's what i get for thinking ahead. Phil Jackson is presently undefeated in series when his teams win game 1. He was 9-1 in game 2 of nba finals. he's now 9-2. not too many home teams win games 3-5 in the finals. what i'm hoping for, and it's funny how i brought up dwayne wade and the '06 finals, is that the '08 finals goes the same way as '06 finals. That is Dallas won the first two and and Miami won the next four including those three home games they had. that's what i'm hoping for. sigh....going to be a long day.